I do this every year and to be frank I’m disappointed in myself for my lack of focus but..

It’s been two years since you left this beautiful Earth that we all knew you adored. Losing you paused our world for days and today we paused again. I lit all the candles in the house and fondly browsed through our albums together.

You were truly a vibrant human being and after all the dreams I’ve had with you in them it is without a doubt that you still carry your vibrant soul high. Thank you for watching over us these past two years. I don’t know how any of us would have carried on without your soul guarding us.

I’m hopefully heading to the Grand Canyon this summer. Care to join?

In loving memory of my sweet Uncle Haakon RIP 5/17/10

Hand over your heart, lets go home

I was taught as a child to compose myself at all times. The idea of being vulnerable was frightening, as it is to everyone, but an emotion I vowed to never feel. I promised myself that I would do everything in my power to avoid that unguarded sentiment because I always saw it was a weakness.

Lately I’ve been having trouble keeping that equanimity whole. I always had this fortitude that was indestructible and I was so proud of it but I believe I have reached a point in my life where it is dying. 

It’s cracking like an egg when it’s boiled. Piece by piece the shell falls apart only to unleash a new covering. Something softer and a bit revelation like. This phase is something I am battling with as my pieces are slowly cracking off..

Piece by piece,

My new covering unveils.

Now and then i think of all the times you screwed me over